It felt weird being back at work today. People were definitely treating me tenderly which was nice [I want a better word here but "nice" is the best I can do right now] and creepy in about equal amounts. A lot of people wanted to hug me. I’m not a huge fan of the hug, unless we’re tight, but it makes people feel better so it’s easiest just to let them. It was interesting to note who said something, who sent an email, who called. Where loyalties lie. For example, one clerk I’ve known for about a year, but not the other, who I’ve worked with for five. Partners I’ve never worked with, but not one in my own department. No malice here, just interesting.
At the end of the day my Aunt called me and I went upstairs to her office. She was having a similar experience. By then, I think we both just wanted people to leave us alone. You feel like shit saying that though, when people are only being kind and trying to love you.